If I don’t make offerings, what does my practice consist of?
- devotional art
I am finally tired of this, I think, and am learning to focus on other non-spiritual inspirations. So, right now, my inspiration is werewolves and folk tales. At a scifi/fantasy con this weekend, a historical fiction author encouraged me to read tales in the time or genre I want to write in, thereby getting the right vocabulary and tone.
I certainly haven’t stopped loving tarot. I don’t read for others often, but from time to time, it might be nice. I did deliver spirit messages with tarot for the first time a few months ago. I am hesitant to set myself up as an oracle, because frankly, that is a lot of fucking work, and I have no actual credentials. I am, in some way I suppose, rejecting the gifts the gods gave me, of seership, because sitting and meditating on messages has become profoundly boring and uninspiring to me.
My friend Varian is writing rune poems, which I admire a lot! Sometimes, I think I’d like to do this, but given that I am currently trying to learn Japanese, I need to focus more on learning hiragana (the basic Japanese alphabet) more than I do runes.
I so rarely do magic. The last time I can think of doing magic was two years ago at a witches sabbat weekend. I never really… got into it? I guess when you look at ceremonial magic or any spells material list, it all seems to take so long. I dunno. I could do sigils, I guess.
Lady Guinevere encouraged me the other day to try again. She’s trying to motivate me into some kind of spiritual action. I feel disinterested. Sometimes, I am not sure of the point of my faith anymore.
- reading myths and legends
While I do enjoy reading and analyzing texts as an amateur scholar, I just.
Maybe I am going through a fallow time. I could let things rest for awhile.
I’d rather commit to an artistic practice than a spiritual practice anyway.